I hate feeling worn out. Some days I wake up, I have energy, I make good use of the time I have been given, and I sleep well, knowing that I have not wasted a day that the Lord has given me. Other days, like today, I wake up and I have no energy, no passion, no zest with which to live the life God has blessed me with. I am weary, I am grumpy, and I need the Holy Spirit more than anything. It is days like these that I hate the sinful nature, that I eat a lot of food that I don't need, and that the last thing I want to do is study this beyond difficult language that stares me in the face.
What do I do on a day like this?
My heart is echoing the words of Dan Haseltine:
"I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away"
You are so loved dear one. Praying for hope and strength for today. Remember that he understands our weariness. He said come, you who are heavy leaden and I will give you rest. Its OK to be tired and unmotivated some days. It only draws us nearer to him. Praise him. He is so worthy to be praised. He knows. He knows. So many hugs for you from me.
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Days like these." -John Mark Mcmillian :)
Fortunately, Jules, God has already given you a new day and the old one's quickly forgotten. Rest in Him today. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. We love you --very much praying for you. M&P
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