Sometimes, I get overwhelmed. I know that God has led me to Thailand , and
to work with Love Acts, but some days, I have no idea what I am doing. I want
an instruction manual—a step by step guide with how to do ministry and learn
the language and win people for the Lord. There is no such book, and my only
guides are the Holy Spirit (the very good Helper) and my own mind. Sometimes
that leaves me feeling very lost, for sometimes, the Holy Spirit whispers
rather too quietly for my busy, distracted mind to take notice. Other times, He
doesn’t speak at all, leaving decisions up to me alone.
When that happens I sit on the couch and stare…. at nothing
really…. Just stare and wonder and feel very, very small. And then I think,
“What in the world am I doing?” And there is no verbal answer, but I remember
in my heart that with the Spirit of God empowering us, we will not only “soar
on wings like eagles”, but we will “walk and not faint” (Isaiah 40:31). It’s the walking
without fainting part that I need assistance with right now. I’m nowhere near soaring
with eagles, and I’m not even running right now (though I would love a good
run—it’s a great stress reliever). It’s the one-day-at-a-time walking in faithfulness to what God has
called me to that I need the most help with. And—He’s promised it to me.
So, even though I’m clueless, I’m confident in my cluelessness, because I have
the promises of God, based on His unchanging nature, backing me up.
So, I’m alright. Take that, overwhelmed-ness. =)
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